Been in a new environment for a week or so and as each day goes, i’m beginning to adapt to it. things that i’ve been doing all the while before this has slowly drifted from my memory. no more freedom and no more self-paced kinda work.
Friends i do not have till now, mainly due to the work that i’m doing and partly due to my inner self-esteem. i’m neither friendly nor i’m snobbish, i AM created by Him in a very special way that i do not expect to understand me.
Workload has never cease since the day i got hold of it. it refused to slow down either. tiredness linger around when one’s mind is weak or disllusioned. i’m getting used to it now. after work doesn’t necessary means home though, would be a waste if everyone were to do that. imagine that, everyone in this world goes back home straight after their work then wat’s the purpose of having clubs and cinemas?!
I used to trapped in this but nowadays no more. so many things can be done even after a day’s work. no such thing as speed back to home at 5pm and hit the bed straight away. no one wants their lives to be taken over by their jobs. it is WE who control our job and activities!
Ppl always say ‘no time’ but i think, it is WE who do not make time for ourselves. chase after time rather than being chase by time! time is man-made remember. without watches or clocks created by men, we wouldn’t know wat’s the time.
Being at the new environment means i have to sacrifice time wit my love one. but yet i’ve never complained but taking it as a test by Him. can’t meet everyday but then i’ll try to make the best out of the time we’ve allocated whenever we had the chance to do so.
I love my work, despite being the lone ranger. however, i’m given authority to question anyone i wan to without telling them my purpose of the questions. yet, i always bear in mind not to be carried away by the power conferred to me by my superior. in other words, i fear none of my colleague despite them being senior except my superior.
It was the kind of job i’ve been asking God for and now it has been answered. however, there’s no ppl in my department who is doing wat i’m doing except for some little guidance from my superior. yet, i couldn’t go to him all the time when i have a doubt.
This is just only the beginning for me and it’ll be the same for the next 3 months or so…
” Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.”
~ Colossians 3:23