My bad for not updating for like a month other than some albums reviews. As of today, i’m no longer working for this particular week. yup, yesterday was my last day wit SY which i thought it has potential for my development but maybe i was abit too naive about it.
I started there in april wit a pay that is similar to any graduates who started off in one or more audit firms. it is indeed little to survive especially in this kinda economic condition. i was told that that particular pay was for starting since i do not have my cert yet and after i get my cert, i’ll get an increment. and also i was told that though my post was related to internal audit but i’ll have to do ‘abit’ of costing.
So, there i thought that after i get my cert i would get my increment. and in the following month i obtained my cert and passed to my boss. he never say anything about giving increment and so i kept quiet, thinking that he might be busy at that moment or maybe he’ll talk about it wit me in the next few days or following week.
Days, weeks and even months passed but there was no news about it. at the end of june, i went to see my boss and asked him for increment. he said it shouldn’t be a problem for me to get increment as long as i have do the work that he told me to. still there was no incement as i checked in my account the following month. so, i told myself to give him another month to see whether he’ll give me increment or not. halfway thru july, i wrote to another company unsure of whether i’ll get wat i wan in this company. went for interview at the end of july and got accepted in the beginning of august.
The next day, i handed in my ‘retire’ letter to my boss. at first he din say anything so i just went off from his room. after awhile, he called me into his office and told me to sit down while he took out a huge file which contains all the appointment letters of all the employees to look for my appoinment letter.
And he started off by telling me that my “dept” that he has given me so much freedom in my work and never really control me. halo excuse me, my so-called ‘dept’ has only 2 persons ok and that’s miss T and myself. i really have no idea of why he wanna start this internal audit dept, looking to the fact that he cannot even capable of overlooking into it being tied up wit all other works.
He then asked me, ‘Why, are you not happy wit the work here cos in your letter, you just wrote you resign due to personal reason?’ then i just told him that it was not about the work and i’ve never complain about the workload though sometimes he wans us to rushed certain reports to submit and after getting it done and showed him, he din use it at all. eventually, i told him it about the pay and i couldn’t survive wit that little. furthermore, i wanted to do my professional accounting exam, which i did voice out to him that time in june when requesting for increment.
And there he goes wit his ‘fairytale’. he asked, ‘You know why i cannot give you an increment?’ there’s a few points he mentioned why;
- I was late for the first 2 months of probation. as far as i remembered, i was only late the first month cos i followed my fren to work.
- I always go pantry wit my fren who is wit another company. now you see, my boss as a problem wit seeing his own staffs in the pantry wit other company’s staffs. he’s afraid of ‘leak of information’ konon. or should i say, ppl talk about his bad things in the pantry? i told him i’ve not go pantry so often and he said, ‘Ya, you did reduce but that was after telling you 3 times!’ wtf, since when got tell me 3 times?!
- My formal shirts are too dark in color.
- Of course, it’s about my bad habit addiction. i know it’s bad but i wasn’t doing inside the office. it’s just one in the morning and one in the afternoon.
After he has mentioned all the points, i just asked him one question. ‘Did i submit all the works that you wan me to do?’ he said, ‘Ya, i agree you got do the work but i don’t like your working attitude.’ to him, a good employee is someone who’ll listen to him eventhough he’s wrong and not only perform his work. in other words, he wans ppl to carry his LP if you know wat i mean.
Sad to say, i’m not that kinda person. i’m rebellious in nature. if you said i can’t do this and that, you’ll have to give me a reason. pantry issue is not problem. come on, if a person can get all his work done why bother bout him going pantry?! it’s about the end-result and not the process in this case.
And there was something that he said which left me thinking whether he does realise wat he’ve actually just blurted out from his mouth. he said i din learn anything these few months. duh… if i’m able to learn i wouldn’t have wanted to go so badly.
Despite the fact that my post was internal audit assistant, but 90% of my works involve wit doing costing. i was told i’ll do ‘abit’ but looking at it, it’s way alot! that’s why i wanna leave cos i couldn’t learn anything about internal audit. can’t blame him cos the internal audit dept was just set up the moment i joined in and i was the lone ranger. miss T however just joined in the month of may. besides, my boss doesn’t even have an audit plan for stating the dept. it’s like a person wanna open a shop but w/o proper planning for where, whom, what and how kinda problems.
He then asked me 3 times whether i wanna take back the letter and i refused. he did told me to stay for at least a year and who knows i might get an increment. ya right, who knows i won’t get one! my purpose of resigning was not to threaten my boss to increase pay as wat some ppl like to do. these ppl will like to scare the shit out of the boss by giving the letter and knowing he/she will get the payrise. then the boss will panic, diagnosed wit high BP and eventually increase their pay and beg them to stay back.
From that day onward, it was gonna another torturious month for me before i can be free which was today. in between i did submit my work to him and there he criticised my work which he has never do so before. i did actually wat he wanted in the report and he said, ‘Your work has always been like that never improve.’ come on, you wan it that way so i did the same. from then on, i stop doing the work eventhough i was suppose to finish the remaining costing which i din.
How did i get thru each day? well, hentam games la like nobody’s business! be it warcraft or Dota, even flash games also not excluded.
My reaction about my last day was a mixture of both happy and uncertainty. happy cos i finally do not have to see my boss’ face and i’m able to sleep thru the daylight though it’s only temporary. uncertain was whether would there be any different if haven’t done the above 3 points as mentioned by him. i admit working in a construction company is way interesting cos i’m able to learn new engineering terms though not directly involve. not only that, i get the chance to go to the construction site and by the way, we deal wit building bridges. housing construction is boring cos i won’t get to see those monstrous machineries.
Well now that i’m free and at home, there will be ample time for me update my blog. but then i cannot stand doing nothing for too long, beh tahan la. i’ll be starting the new job next week and this remaining week is for recharging my battery life.
Now for abit off-topic. i’m doing all i can do curb my bad habit addiction for some time but it shows a lil’ positive sign. i remembered i was able to stop completely for 6mths way back in 2002 but wonder how come now i can’t even stay away from it for even a few days. each day for me is about 4 sticks but i still that’s abit too much. of course now it’s better than before but still not good enough.
I’m not the only who felt this way. the feeling of resisting it is totally different, ya ‘cold turkey’ you can called it. wonder if it’s due to this that things doesn’t seem to work out one way or another. but i’m glad to have my sweetheart to give me the support and encouragement to overcome it.
That’s all for now and see you ppl around soon.
cheers & GB…
